1.
For nearly a year, I
sopped
around the house, the Store, the school and
the church, like an old biscuit, dirty and inedible.
Then I met, or rather got to know, the lady who threw
me my
first life line.
2.
Mrs. Bertha Flowers was the aristocrat
of Black
Stamps. She
had the grace of control to appear warm in the coldest
weather, and on the Arkansas summer days it
seemed she had a private breeze which swirled
around, cooling her. She was thin without the
taut look of wiry
people, and her printed voile
dresses and flowered hats were as right for her as
denim
overalls
for a farmer. She was our side's answer to the richest
white woman in town.
3.
Her skin was a rich black that would have peeled like
a plum if
snagged, but then no one would have thought of
getting close enough to
Mrs. Flowers to ruffle
her dress, let alone snag her skin. She
didn't encourage familiarity.
She wore gloves too.
4.
I
don' t think I ever saw Mrs. Flowers laugh,
but she smiled often. A slow widening of her thin
black lips to show even, small white teeth, then the
slow effortless closing. When
she chose to smile on me. I always wanted to
thank her. The
action was so graceful and inclusively benign.
5.
She was one of the few gentlewomen I have ever known,
and has remained throughout my life the measure of
what a human being can be.